update on gender classes. . .

After I wrote the last post, I had to really think about the class, the frustration I felt and the way that the information was presented. I decided to write a letter to the teacher who does most of the gender classes, if for no other reason, then to get it off of my chest. I was answered very quickly with more questions. Apparently I was confused, I thought this was a psychology class, but instead it was a Women's Studies class. OH! That made it that much worse. The good part of the issue is they are looking into replacing the instructor or working to ensure it is taught from a feminist perspective, the bad part is, I hate being the rabble rouser, the one to stir the pot or cause problems. I am glad that the department is taking it seriously though. . .

I realized today that I started this blog to talk about my coming out process, or, my saga. . . . depending on how you really look at it (can you truly come out for 12 years? lol) and the past few posts had nothing to do with the process. I guess its because not much is happening there, unfortunately!

I wrote below about the woman I have been seeing, but it feels like this relationship gets stalled at every turn. We made plans to go somewhere almost every weekend, yet every weekend there is some reason that she can't make it. I find my own level of frustration growing, as we have been seeing eachother now for over three months. . . . .yet there has been nothing physical between us yet. Nothing. . . . except a hug before she left for a weekend in Vegas. That was in the airport and the most platonic hug there could be.

I am so confused. . . I have told her that we can just be friends, but she claims to want more. I have went out many times without her, in groups of other women. She doesn't like it, yet she doesn't go herself. It is the most confusing situation! Is it excuses or is it truly situations that she encounters?

On the other hand, I find myself with a small sense of relief. As much as I want to move forward with this relationship, there is the other sense of being glad that I don't have to navigate around this relationship and the ramifications. I talk about her enough that my family now knows that I am seeing a woman, the kids know, they have her on "myspace". . . . go figure. . . .

Sunday, she meets my mother for the first time. THAT should be interesting!?! If anybody out there is the praying type, they should be praying on Sunday :) My daughter is having her birthday at a local Pizza place, and the whole family will be there. I told her yesterday that "K" was coming. Mom got very. . . very . . . quiet. Silent.

I said "mom, I think its a good time to meet her, thats ok right?" My mom didn't say much, finally she looked at me and said "Well, I guess I don't have a choice do I?"

Sunday isn't looking fun . . .