Biopsy done. . . bloodwork done. . . next is ultrasound

Well,

I arrived at the dr. office yesterday in pretty good spirits. Come to find out I have some limited insurance through my university that I didn't even know about. That made me feel much much better, as they pay 75%. I actually almost threw the card out and then decided to check at the last minute, and sure enough; I have insurance! Granted, it won't cover much for anything major but for now, it was enough to make me feel positive.

So, I got seated in the room, and my sweet wonderful Dr. came in. I feel lucky that I have been able to get to know her in the community due to my line of work. I feel safe and trust her completely. She offered to give me a shot that would make me pain-free for 8 hours, but I was worried about side effects since I have been having increasing allergies. Instead I told her just to go for it, and I would make it.

So, if your squimish, stop reading here. .. . the short version is I will know in a week. If your wanting to know what the biopsy was truly like. .. . I will go step by step and tell the gory details. I am doing this because I couldn't find it anywhere on the web, and I felt uncomfortable going into it blind.

So, I lie back on the table like a regular pap. She said the good news is my cervix was open so that wouldn't be a problem. Some women aren't open enough to be able to insert the tubing. Next she showed me the thin catheter, similar to a straw but flexible and soft. It sorta reminded me of a pipette in high school science. She dipped it into lidocane and then inserted it into my cervix. . . . OUCH! I'm not going to lie, this does not feel good at all, sorta like a pinch but with serious cramping at the same time. At that point she said we had to wait three minutes for the medication to take effect. She gathered supplies during that time and then told me to get ready to go again. At this point she tried again but all she could get was blood and clots, it was. . . . disgusting. . . to say the least. She said "excuse me while I do some housekeeping" and I could watch as she removed blood and clots from me. She then went one more time, and I almost came off the bed. She said at that point she was fairly sure she got tissue, and that she wasn't going to try again. She removed the speculum and then said she had to feel my uterus. I thought she must have slipped and bumped her head because my uterus was in no shape to have a discussion of massage.

But, she chucked and said "im a gynecologist, of course im going to feel your uterus" well, the first part was uncomfortable but ok then she went to my left side and I almost jumped off the bed again. She said "OH! That feels like a very large fibroid right there" and then made a size of a large grapefruit. . . or a small melon, with her hands. She drew a little diagram of the different ways that a fibroid can be located and cause discomfort. She said shed like to see me under ultrasound and see if she could tell. She said it could also just be that my uterus was full of blood and clots and have some hard feelings to it. So, I went to stand up and get dressed but she had me stop. . .. I looked down and saw why. It was soooo bloody and so many clots, that it had to be cleaned before I could even stand up. YUCK! Overall the biopsy wasn't extremely painful but it certainly wasn't comfortable and I wouldn't want to do it again.

So, we walked down the hallway and she tried a vaginal ultrasound, but by then it was so uncomfortable. . . I tried to sit still but she couldn't see much at all. The u/s machine was older and there was alot of blood, so she said that she would rather me go into the hospital and have a complete ultrasound in a few days after the biopsy had time to heal and we could see more. She patted my leg and told me how brave I was, and for some crazy reason that made me feel so much better. I have been struggling with being sick and thinking maybe I am just crazy and making it all up in my mind. . .. She reassured me that she could see that this was painful and I had every reason to be unhappy.

After that, I was set up with an Ultrasound for Tuesday, followed by lab draws for so many vials of blood I thought I would need a transfusion. Either way, I should have an answer by next Friday.

Hopefully. . .. its a small fibroid and can be fixed with medication or ? Something? Anything but Cancer. . . . please. Please God?